Like this:

i know it’s been some time since i actually wrote down something … and quite frankly …. i’ve kinda missed it.  so den why didn’t i write down something??? couldn’t be ‘cos i didn’t have something to write about … i’d be lying if i said that … but it’s just that i couldn’t get myself down to actually doing it. life’s been too twisted in the past two months … and have been held up just trying to figure it out … and where i’m heading … wish i could say i had an answer … but i’m still searching for it …. but in the meanwhile here goes my crap anyway …..

sooooooooo …. what do i say … well since my last post … a few things have happened … the new year has come … (no real surprise there haaaaan) …… and the thing about a new year is that it’s supposed to give you all these chances to make all your new year resolutions. an opportunity and a chance to have a fresh start on things … on life. but over the years i’ve realised that that’s not what people look for in a new year. the truth is we all want new opportunities and starts every single day of the year …. it’s just that we actually don’t want to lose these chances. we hope and pray that come the right day and time we are exactly where we are supposed to be … ‘cos if we’re not then it’s all the same now … isn’t it …

… but before i throw you into a sense of manic depression …. i’ve gotta tell this little story … noooo it’s not a romantic one … it’s the kinda thing you come across once or twice in your lifetime …. but leaves you absolutely amazed and ashamed at the same time (now sticking to my rules i’m not gonna take names, but some of you might well figure it out) … i’ve a friend …  a real sweet girl … i met her about 3 years ago … but we didn’t really interact much then …. but we did started talking about a year back …. she’s a pretty simple kinda of a gal … but someone who’s had quite a tough time … especially in the past year or so …. she lost her father quite some time back … and then recently learned that her mum was quite sick too. we interacted and chatted quite a bit in at the end of last year … until she kinda went on an extended leave. when she came back she told me that her mum had passed away.

to be honest i didn’t know how to react or what to say …. then last month me and a friend of mine went down to meet her when she came down to the city …. and she was nothing like i had imagined she would be. she was calm and composed, witty and humorous. honestly made me feel like the odd man of the group … and it taught me some things about people and myself i guess … it’s hope … Hope is a good thing, probably the best thing … it’s the one thing that we all hold on to … no matter how bad things get and no matter how much it all stops making sense … we still hope that things will get better and it’ll be alright … it’s the best we can do …

guess gotta wind up now … it’s 9:53PM and i’m hungry as hell … till d next time ciao!!!

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